Hurts + Hards

Man..it's hurts!!

how shall i continue my day...how shall i throw this out of my mind! i can't but..with it inside my head...i'm unable to sleep!!!!

wak...as i mention...it's none of your fault...my bad...but frankly speaking...its hard... can't imagine how but i knew it's hard for me...tapi tak bermaksud awk nak rasa bersalah or serba salah...u dont have to...me=guy... this is just my 1st day... ;o)

i was here at my office...not talking to any of my colleague...but kak rahah is such a good sister...somehow she know me very well...until she did ask me a question this morning...

i knew there were mistakes which i've done during my short journey...but the reason...in normal situation, its unacceptable... but this is life... we experience different2 things upon our path...

i just can't change myself just to be / not to be like other person...myself is me...i may change...but from my negative side to maybe more positive site...but to change n wish she didn't see me as other person is hard...i can't do that because myself is myself...

either its unfair to me...it should be unfair for her as well if i continue all this...

awk nk tau kenapa sy selalu fikir negatif? saje....untuk sedapkan hati n biasakan diri bila benda tu betul2 jadik...so...i'm prepared... sy penah paksa awk ckp yg awk da ada bf kan? sy kena terima 'penolakan' ni...tapi sy blum tentu boleh terima sebab tu...which sy terfikir sebab awk spend + keluar ngan sy...just utk awk terus ingat dia?? sy cuba faham wak...i'm on my way to understand all this...

sy mmg takde hak untuk halang if awk tetap syg dia lagi...cuma awk yg ada hak pada diri awk sendiri...tp sy mmg taknak paksa2 awk dah...i doubt to be there on your convo day...sy rasa elok awk halang sy dari pegi konvo awk...even tu tempat public...but u know the reason i'll be there...

mat...kalau betul lu ckp camner? 'we' were there for the event...will she reliased dat i was there?
tapi lagu semlm mmg cukup utk merujuk semuanya...lu mmg ada instinct yg kuat mat... less than 10 hours after we heard dat song...everything turns to real!!

gua nk share sumthing ngan lu org...pagi ni masa gua drive gi keje...gua dpt rasa ada org kat seat co-driver...dia pakai baju kurung kuning...sweet sgt...gua just takleh lupa dat moment...lepas je trafic lite which is few hundred meter nak masuk simpang...dia tukar pakai sweater pink plak...aduhhhh

man!!! ni dh kira angau...hahahaha...today...working with no mood at all...plus received a call from my boss event she's not in today... :o(

wish kawan2 gua dpt doakan utk gua jugak...not to say everyday...but once a while...bila lu org teringat kat gua...once in ur lifetime pun consider dah cukup bagus...n i will...do the same as well...


Amin