Super heroes!

Lu org nak tengok gua punya super heroes??

yang kiri gua punya hero lelaki...Ironman...yang kanan hero pompuan... Wonder Women...

encourage me to do many things...its just i'm the 1 yg taknak force myself...

thinking if there is any possibility untuk gua migrate t'ganu...gua akan ikhtiar..kalau org lain bleh buat..napa gua takleh..kan?

well..love them soo much...diaorg tau even gua tak tunjuk... lu ego lebih la hilmi...

chabuttt...

p/s: rambut gua pun dah ikut rambut ayah gua...*huhu*

New Haircut

Well...today i came to work with my new haircut! yehaaa...

tak penah lagi aku buat rambut mcm ni for the last 16 years!!! ikut seingat gua..seumur hidup tak penah potong mcm ni...tapi sejak gua mula bela2 rambut ni since darjah 5...so..'92 - '08 la kiranya...

actually sebab gua rasa kabut...berat kepala ni hah...balik je keje gua terus singgah barber untuk settle kan rambut gua... :o) ada yg kata huduh...ada yg kata comel...hahahaha... tapi gua still ada rasa tak tenang... mintak2 tak lama la perasaan ni...

elok gua abis mandi+syampoo semua...gua sms kacau dia... dia bagitau gua yg dia pun berat kepala...dengan org ofis katanya...gua tak tanya banyak sebab gua plak yg dah terlelap dulu... *huhu* teruknya...

a bit different from previous time..but ye la... gua rasa ada my fault but i've say sorry... hopefully dia maafkan..

and i'm now waiting for her free time... where she have sumthing to tell me...i'll wait...i wont force her to tell me..but i'll wait...

just take your time k?

today i'm very tired...new joined sampai 7 org.. gi labor office.. g FSA.. report lagi.. flextalent lagi.. fenin gua.. balik ni tido lagi la jawapnya... huhu...

48 hours

It has been more that 48 hours since i received the last sms from her... kalau lu tanya gua... gua ngaku gua miss her sms... her jokes... her ayat2 memain... ayat kenakan gua...

if nak kata gua ego...ok la kalau gua ngaku gak...tapi its actually gua segan... segan nak interupt dia lagi...dia sibuk..keje dia bukan untuk layan sms gua... gua je yg tak malu dok kacau dia...

tapi gua akan sms dia...bila tahap gua mmg miss kaw kaw nyer...setakat ni bleh cover lagi la kot... tapi for the last 48hours...gua tunggu je hp gua bunyi... mmg ada sms..but not from her...

i'll wait until the right time...either i will receive from her...or i'm the 1 who sms her first...

i've started to miss someone...........

Complimentary

Saturday, 26th April - Gua datang office dlm tghari right after our futsal tournament finished their group match... n suddently i saw on my table, a black diary...with a note on top of it...

"To: Mr. Hilmi

From: Sailiza"

Its actually a Prudential Diary...black cover with silver logo...

She's one of the prudential agents who had approched me but i just told her i've already sign up... she drop the diary just for a complimentary from Prudential...

Well.. Prudentail's agents are very nice... but yet, i still cant forget the 1 who is very2 nice...huhuhu *sob..sob*


I should be more tough that this...i know i can..but its just i could not...but i will n i have too... :o)

Chantek - Altimet feat. Adeep

Chantek

Hey wanita
Gembira dapat berjumpa
Teringat kembali kali pertama kita bersua
Ingat bila kita bersepatu serupa
Tak lama dahulu jangan kau kata kau dah lupa

Kau bersama kawan-kawan muda yang nyata
Kau paling menyerlah di antara mereka
Rambut hitam warna cokelat anak mata
Membuat aku kurang fasih bila bicara

Apakata kita ambil sedikit masa
Untuk mengenali sesama kita dengan lanjutnya
Dan jika kau rasa apa yang ku rasa
Ayuh kita ke bab kedua dan seterusnya


ChantekDirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka
Di jiwa
Ohh chantek
Sungguh aku cinta kamu


Dia
Pandai menjaga hati ayah dan ibunya
Kelakuannya sama dengan orang tuaku juga
Dia
Bisa cipta yg gula dari yang cuka
Pandai menukar yg duka kepada suka
DiaBijak mengatur acara dan juga masa
Cekap memasak garam gula secukup rasa
Dia
Pandai menjaga harta dan juga duitnya
Tetap anggun tanpa mendedahkan kulitnya
DiaSetia pada Yang Esa satu-satunya
Memenuhi tanggungjawab 5 waktunya
Dia
Punya tempat dalam rancangan yg ku rangka
Tak usah lengah
Ayuh kita berumah tangga


Chantek
Sechantek suria menyinar
Seindah bunga yang di taman..mekar
Chantek
Dirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka
Di jiwa
Oohhh chantekk
Sungguh aku cinta kamu


Aku
Melihat kita bersama di hari tua
Dia
Masih satu tiada empat tiga atau dua
Dan walaupun kau sudah kepudaran rupa
Kau tetap cantik padaku aku tak lupa
Kita bersama di anjung luangkan masa
Kewangan kita merdeka mampu bersara
Hasil usaha kita dari masa dahulu
Cukup untuk mengisi perut anak dan cucu
Hidup santai tak perlu terburu-buru
Punya masa kerja ibadah dan juga ilmu
Anak kita dan ayahya semua sebulu
Aku bilang kau chantek dan mereka setuju

Chantek
Sechantek suria menyinar
Seindah bunga yang di taman..mekar
Chantek
Dirimu buat ku tertarik
Menghilang segala prasangka di jiwa
Ohh chantek
Sungguh aku cinta kamu

p/s: forget u not

My HW collections

Just before i left bintang@7... just to share my HW collections... gua kena jaga menda2 ni daripada jatuh ke tangan anak buah gua...kalau tak..haru.... most of the collection were unreplaceable....byk tempat gua carik...tapi few je jumpa....

this should be more in future...just to fullfill my time n make myself busy...

new dude to hang wif

After all things happen...i'm still with my new fren...who always make me laugh...

still cant walk but baru2 nak belajar merangkak... he's name? Mohamad Hafiey Hazlin....ye kot..gua tak penah tengok surat beranak dia....muahahaha...he's my new hero...luorg tengok la dia punya jeling...tak hingat!!!

gua mmg dah tak tentu skang...taktau apsal...tapi pikir balik...ada org lain yg lebih teruk dari gua... now is 12.14am...n esok gua nak keje....sat lagi gua gerak la ni...nak share pic anak buah gua...

Unforgotten

Somehow gua almost lupa pasal whole box of chocolates and dunkin' donuts given by my agent... she did give a full box of prudentials chocolate (the same chocolate she gave me earlier...) and a box of dunkin' donuts....for my supper on 19th April..(actually 1am on 20th b4 i send her to her training later in the morning..)


actually that night my dad ask me to buy him burger..while both of us watching football match..look for the burger in sec 11 but it closed n move on to McD sec 3 for a drive thru...
i did think of her..who is still not yet sleep n bought her 6 pieces of chicken nugget for my supper...(gua takmo gemuk sorang2...muahaha)


send her the nuggets and she pass me the two boxes...we continue sms until she sleep... lu tau apa gua bagitau my parents...(my mum pun bangun coz my dad kejut utk mkn fries..) gua ckp je terus terang agent gua bagi...compliment after gua sign policy ngan dia...

ey...even my agent told me so... "anggap je coklat ni daripada agent to client..." but still untouchable until today.... gua ingat nak awet je...bleh ke eh?


untuk buat sesapa yg baca ni jeles...gua attachkan pic coklat tu...huhuhu..

now

tonite....gua alone...layan sorang...completekan blog gua...for sure i will update this blog all the time...gua akan masukkan kalau boleh ape je citer gua pasni...gua rasa lagi best hidup sorang...

ikutkan tak sorang pun...i still hav family here...my mom+dad who is very supportive... gua rasa elok gua ikut je rancangan diaorg...selama kita semua still ada... yeay!

untuk sesapa yg baca blog ni...anggap je ni cerita novel...dongeng tahun 2008... muahahaha..

if nana yg baca...sy mintak maaf kalo ada benda yg sy citer kat bawah ni wat awk tersinggung...
if ada yg mcm tak kena tu..anggap je la itu perisa tambahan dari sy...

sy takde niat nak tipu awk...or sorokkan dari awk...just matter of time... but know...u will still be my agent kan? maaf wak if sy ni main lepas ckp....tapi sy mmg suka kat awk... elok la if awk tak nampak...or buat2 tak nampak...better for u...we still frens gak..

tapi if awk bz, just drop recorder tu kat dayah je la...ask her to pass it to me at office...
terus terang sy ckp...sy mmg enjoy spend time ngan awk...gelak awk...serious awk...main is awk ni kelakar...on your character... mmg org akan senang ngan awk...

da la tu kot....gua dah byk melalut ni...assume ada yg nk baca....hahaha.....

mamak ni pun dah kemas2...dari kol 11++ gua kat sini..ni dah 3.40...elok gua gerak dulu...n sure akan sambung later...

adios pembaca semua....chaaabutttttttt

all goes wrong

it is the day where i shall introduce my fren to my agent....25th April @ Pak Li...

datin ida was there 1st as i miss her at our plant... so i give her a pick up and we went together...
she starts right after we ordered our drinks.. everything seems okay until i saw a guy with a white shirt walking beside me...on his way to toilet...looks familiar...

this guy...really annoying me...yeah, he's good...timbalan pendaftar @ age 26...but do u think u r good enough?? lu pikir la sendiri..... huh

then the drama starts... i just thinking to share my story with her by this weekends...but what a small world...things moving very fast....i failed...

last nite...all sms goes wrong...it was not the same as usuall....as i thank God...i think i had this bad feeling since before friday prayer...sy bgtau kak rahah yg sy berdebar...n sumhow i think i want to let her know right after our meeting session finished...

tapi tu la...Allah Maha Besar...Dia nak tunjuk kat gua yg selalu lupa kat dia...gua kekadang terlepas ckp if i lost her...mean i lost her...forever... now...my pray comes true..i can feel it...i've drop it somehow... if she ask me bout my story...i should shame to myself...as a guy...

sy mmg byk buat salah before....tapi i do feel like its time for me utk tebus tu semua... i know i can change...but i need time... tapi apa yg dah jadi..gua takleh tarik balik... tu la...gua selalu pikir yg -ve...skang dah jadik...bila gua kata kat diri sendiri yg gua akan 'hilang' dia...buat gua jadi lagi tak senang... tapi tu la...bila gua pikir2 balik...belek diri gua sendiri...gua sedar sapa gua...

so...gua decide yg gua sanggup terima apa yg jadi... gua tau gua tak layak untuk dia... tapi gua nak cuba...nak cuba jaga dia kalau gua ada peluang... gua penah ckp kat dia gua penipu..its not penipu sebenarnya...just dia tak tanya...gua tak citer la...

if skang ni dia ada depan gua...gua nak je ckp...gua nak serius ngan dia.... gua ikhlas...gua tak memain... if dia nak reject gua...takpe..gua terima...tapi gua nak cuba... gua tau dia buat2 tak nampak....tapi gua nak tau apa dia rasa....

gua terasa bila dia pernah sms gua..."please, dont waste your time on me..."... gua tau dia takkan terima gua...tapi if dia bagi gua masa...gua nak tunjuk kat dia yg gua serius... but i think i dont have that chance anymore... :o( sian kat gua...(actually padan muka gua)

ouch!

as what i promise earlier....get her few client...

tak tau camner nak jadikan cerita..1 of finance staff nak tukar insurance..n kebetulan mmg dia nak carik prudential...asking for takaful..as what i bought... sy bagitau dia to meet with my agent... we set a meeting on the last day she at her training center...

set on thursday...i'm on leave...set for a lunch...just to lent my ear to hear her experience...
nice to hear she's talking...it just that feel....sy tak dpt semua tu skang ni....tp dengan nana ni lain...she not my agent...she is my fren..official or not...i assume she is my fren...who act as an agent...

spend time with her equally to spending time with a princess....biarlah kalau org kata 'poyo' or 'ayat bodek' or 'gedik'... i want to let her know...its from me...not my fren...not other person...its from me... i cant say this infront of her...but i say it here! i know because sy yg rasa+melalui waktu ni...

trust me...ini bukan bodek...

keep in touch

we do keep in touch very well... know y?? because i keep sms her even she's busy...

20th April... woke up early...make my time free to send her over to damansara...she's going for a training... wish her luck....and there u go...i still force her to make her time free for sms me... teruk kan hilmi ni...

sy taktau kenapa....tapi sy rasa senang ngan dia...feel cool...feel free...ntah la...alhamdulillah sebab dia pun senang kawan dgn sy... sy tak terfikir nak amik kesempatan dekat dia... since dia byk tolong sy n baik kat sy... sy da promise myself utk dapatkan few other client untuk dia...
sy akan tolong dia selagi sy mampu....i wont lose anything...

nana rocks!!

My policy @ Only Mee

Our next meeting was on 12th April... the day where we had lunch together upon she gave me the policy...

nothing much to share...kept to myself...but 1 of her words did touch me soooo much...when i told her bout my liltle sis... she told me... "if tiba masa untuk dia berubah....dia akan berubah...."

as i mention earlier...she had sumthing different... actually i dont have to change because of anyone...but it seems its time for me to change....

frankly...it was not to make her impressed on me...(this is me...nothing to impressed of...) but sumhow she changed me...especially my thinking... on everything...i did a lot of thinking about life...

share with me bout the rest of her fren...her own story...those thing which make myself feel sooo small among them...

at this point...i would like to tell her sumthing...but i cant...i want too...but i still cant...
:o(

Does anyone saw this smile anywhere?

i know she will be mad at me...but somehow... i still owe her sumthing...to promote my nice agent!

nana...awk nak marah saya? marah la...tapi awk lebih sweet kalau senyum... :o)
mcm dlm pic ni...

sorry...sy akan delete if u ask me to do so...k?

KL @ Morning

I havent got a chance to drive into KL in morning...since i started work in VPT...use too during my time as my dad's driver...huhu...

i make myself free to send her over to Berjaya Time Square...dont meant anything...just wish her not to be in the morning crowd..wearing baju kurung...early in the morning...since she need to be there by 8.00am...n know wat...she make me a breakfast!!!huhu...a biscuit...munchy's lexus...whoaaaa.....pandainya dia... :-)

1st time saw her wearing baju kurung...in yellow...it was....ermm..ermmm...ummm...speechless...

but my seatbelt spoiled her day.... :-( she had the whole nite just to iron that kurung but suddently my belt ruin it...huhu... nasib baik dia maafkan...kalau tak gua dah potong seatbelt tuh...

drop her over the front door with two message..."senyum...n take a good care of yourself"

just hopefully she remember that even i'm not around to remind her...then i back home...continue my way to office...arghhh....kerja lagi....

Hotwheels

i brought few hotwheels cars from Midvalley during my last day in jobfair event... and my agent did ask me to get few for her nephew... then later on 10th April...went to her house to drop the cars... and somehow she did give me sumthing...chocolate...2 piece of Prudential chocolate...state on top March (the month where i met her) and Dec (my birth month)..which i havent eat until today...

sweeettttttt........

attach is the pic taken by...myself... :-)

1st premium

12 hours after our first meeting... met her again to pass my premium...n glad she accepted my offer to send her over to PAS... for her work...it was the first time i saw her not wearing tudung... but prefer she wear tudung...sweet n ayu...

thats it...end of 2nd meeting...but since that day..we keep in touch through sms...it was very rude to interupt her all the time...from morning...till late nite! gua mmg tak malu....huhuhu...

3rd April...if i not mistaken...she did send sms telling me that she hav to go to selayang on saturday...which is on the same day that i hav to be duty for the career fair booth in midvalley...
i offered my self to help her but she keep saying the word "menyusahkan" and "ada plak client teman agent gi appointment".... huhhh....let it be...

4th April...ask her+frens to come over and hav an interview session with the hiring manager...her fren did successfully...manage for 2nd interview in our plant...one of her best fren+roommate...she work hard just to help her fren to get work in Shah Alam...just to stay together...amazing frenship!

5th April...she came to midvalley at 6pm and waiting me for few hours before we make our move to selayang...to met with her another client...

then i know y she mention "at least u still hav a dad..." i felt very sorry to her...she didnt mention anything to me until her fren mention that! n i know how strong is she....perghhh!

i m happy just because i get the chance again to help and accompany her... there were something different from her! n i dont know wat....

My Agent

Introduction on how i met with my agent...

i actually met my agent which is introduce by my fren during his visit to my factory to meet with my other colleague...somehow he ask to see me and i went to his table....he with the other two female...1 of them with short hair and the other 1 is wearing tudung....if i'm not mistaken...red tudung...

hav a chit chat before they make a move and i've told my fren that i wish to know the girl in tudung...but since i do look at my own face in the mirror everyday....i decided not to proceed....

somehow...after few days...i do received a call which i thought it was from maxis/voicemail (the last 4 digitd was same with my own last phone number...i heard female voice saying "ni nana ni..." and somehow my batt was low...i ask to call her back... (when she think i was affraid to hear her voice....but yes i did!!)

reply her call back in the evening...she wish to set a meeting upon her insurance policy presentation...but i'm too busy to catch with the schedule...until.... i day my fren gimme a call to meet up in shah alam...without knowing that this 'chantek' will be together with him...i agree to meet him at one the restaurant in sec 7...as usual...he came with his favourite agent... :-)

after they had their late dinner...we starts with the presentation...i've already make up my mind to get a policy as advice by my dad since i always sick...(he forced me to get 1! huh..) and my dad did advice to get either from prudential since they have a good medical covers... i ask to hear the takaful plan...

she did her presentation well...cool and calm...n with a bit of my knowledge during my study in insurance...i get an ideas on the plan.... after long presentation...(which is already 10++pm...i've decided to sign up....not for me...but for those two person in my nomination list....Y? because they provide the saving plan as well....(ask to put my agent's name in the list....maybe later...in future...if possible...) huhu...

and there u go....i took the RM250 premium which is considered higher... am i mad? maybe...but look at my nomination list...is ok...frankly...i dont savings...none...but previously i was still manage to hold up my life when my pay is 900.... just to maintain what i have now... glad i'm not smoking...(it was considered a saving compare to my other colleague...muahahaha)

so there u go....end of my introduction on my agent...at this moment...thinking to met her again... next day just to pass my premium....duhh...crazy hilmi!!!